I was reading ashburn's Blog and i found this. It nicely speaks of how i feel and think. I wanted to rewrite it all over but i think i wont be able to carry the delicate taste of it as nicely as him. So i just want to borrow some of what he thinks..
When you miss someone do you tell s/he about it?
"ASH: I rather not missed the opportunity saying the "impossible" than to let it slip passed me... so as to conclude: I do miss him in a nice way.. whilst, not expecting a reciprocrate-able kind act...or a mere touch of pity.."

ArieL: yes i will. I always do. Just like ASH, i dont want to miss the chance to tell him about it. I dont care if he will take me for granted, feel sick of me saying it..etc or not but i want to let him know, he is always on my mind.
"Be him a bad or good guy..
But deep in there.. I just wanna express the outburst of a strong emotion?

Lets put our deeply cast of judgement aside.. about the goodness/badness of a person being... Maybe s/he wasn't meant to be? Afterall s/he may not be that bad afterall? or did the one-time off incident haunts me for the next few weeks of emotional-trauma?"

I am terribly love sick. But at least, i am not numb. I still have feelings. I am not a living corpse.
I'm very contended with the beautiful illuision which I was bestowed...

You.n.i. The memories of you and me. Something that i always hold on to. I try not to think about it but when i do, i tear. We seemed to have been to everywhere. I kept on seeing you with me. Maybe some things are meant to be good memories. Maybe we are never meant to be. Maybe we are really of the brother sister relationship. Maybe i am wrong, wrong to share too much of my life with you. just like ash, I was walking back home which brings me back to the memory lane when you came to look for me that day just before work. All the way from SengKang. It was before work at Long Beach and i brought herbal Chicken soup for u..Then it was the walk from zouk to Chinablack. We were both clubbing and you came to look for me. Though the moment was shared with ru as well, i still remember your smile, the words you said, the hugs we had. the scenario seems vague but it was promptly remerge the good times we had. last christmas... where i came to meet you after your work, when we were crazy enough to catch the movie marathon. Just the two of us. your images suddenly revolves around me... I know that I miss you again for the good time..

I love you Richel. You may not feel the same way. But if only you will give me a chance one more, to give us both of a chance. Or maybe we are never meant to be..



You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1/27/2004 02:48:00 am