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Heart of Gold


What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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Heart of gold? hmph..
I cant sleep! its already 5.53 am and i haven catch a single second of sleep. This is bad. I read something from msn.com. Want to share it with all of u.

21 symptons to know depressionThe symptoms vary depending on age, personality, and home situation. And because the symptoms are more likely to be blamed on a physical problem than on depression, the diagnosis is frequently made in the pediatrician's office.

What to Look For
Parents should look for the following symptoms if they suspect depression in their kids:
General Behavior
* Seems distracted and has trouble concentrating much of the time
* Is emotionally unstable -- easy to anger and cries easily
* "Looks" sad much of the time
* Has difficulty finding activities that create happiness
* Frequently talks about sad thoughts and memories
Eating
* Refuses to eat or has loss of appetite
* Overeats in a compulsive way
* Has an obvious weight gain or loss
Sleeping
* Exhibits attention-getting behaviors at bedtime
* Awakens more frequently during the night
* Develops sleep disturbances such as nightmares
* Has difficulty "getting going" in the morning
* Sleeps during the day without apparent need for extra sleep
Peer Relationships
* Avoids or seems disinterested in being with friends
* Shows lack of interest in friends' activities
* Fights with friends over trivial matters
School
* Has school avoidance or school phobias
* Shows uncharacteristic disinterest in schoolwork or after-school activities
Home Life
* Loses interest in participating in home activities and conversations
* Avoids or excessively seeks parents' attention
* Has a change in relationship with siblings or extended family

Do u have any of the above symptons? If u do, look for help! but where the hell do u look for help? and it must cost a bomb. So conclusion? carry on depressing. lalala.
Feeling sad or depressed is part of one's daily life. its just like another other feelings like happiness, bitchy, touched. You either accept it or leave it. It will still be around. The only thing you can do to cope is share it with close friends, look for the best way and work on the problem, and use distracting thoughts and activities to temporarily put it out of mind. See! its temporarily. There is nothing you can do to get over this feeling except time. Time, time, time..

I am meeting up james and Sotong tml. Hopefully we will do something fun and makes me feel better. Haven quite confirm the details but i just hope that it will be a breeze. Hehe. Went to house warming at hume ave with Jimmy today. Oh Jimmy is the cute bartender.(lol) Jimmy is really crappy. I think the horoscope is right. I can never click with a cancer coz i am a cancer as well. Jimmy and i cant click very well. But on the second thought, i cant click with anyone well recently. I just feel that there's something that actually blocks myself out of this world. Some attitude in me that i doesnt want to open up. Something about me that i am too cant be bothered to do or care. And Jimmy is one good example. He is a cancer. We made a pact to go to each other's birthday celebration. =) hopefully by then we are still friends. 4 months will come real soon. Sigh. Its gonna be another bad 4 months. I just hope that 2004 will either improve or pass real fast.
I read about fast cars on today's lifestyle. I really admire all the rich ppl who can afford to own one of those. My dream car is not one that's not achievable. Its just merely $123,000. Merely right? many of those cars featured cost at least $400,000. So mine is just chicken feet. No one can really understand my passion for one of those. I want to be the one who owns it and drives it to the peak of its performance level. I feel so 'compressed'. This feeling inside me. I think i can never achieve my dream. Look. I am not going to get a good diploma. Neither am i going to get a good uni cert. So that means i am not going to get a good job. No good job will means that i am going to remain poor and most prob meet poor guys. Poor guys, no money, more problems. Even if i do meet rich guys, i will meet those who are rich but wicked. That's just how my life is. Nothing good actually happen to me. Even if they do, they will vanish fast. However, i still bear that teeny little hope in me that i will have a good life one day. When that hope is gone, i am gone...


You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3/08/2004 05:40:00 am