Time: 10.02pm
Music: Ru's blog music some title i dont know
Mood: Lazy.. but i have to study try yea?

kk i am such a pig coz i woke up at 8+ just now. Slept at 11am this morning. Gosh! my life is upside down again! Frankly speaking i am still..tired. I hate myself to sleep in the morning but i really cant help it and its getting worse and worse! last time used to fall asleep the moment i reach home but now i delay the time all the way till... 11am! wtf?!

Life is just like a drama. U live it by acting in it. It all depends on how well you can act to perform that wonderful piece of art. Both ru and i were talking abt it this morning. I think when i cant stand acting, it will be the day i disappear from earth. When will you be your truth self? sigh. I mean.. i am getting so tired of lying to ppl like my parents..etc. I felt so guilty to tell my parents that i went out to study but in fact i went out to..play! I hate it when ppl put on a fake front and face me. I am not sure if its the real them ornot-like bryan. I recently noticed that he added me into his friendster. That's not a bad thing. At least, i hope, we are friends. yea. But i also noticed another thing. His friendster account's friends had multiply and greatly populated by girls. that's like so wierd. I am afraid he's really going to carry out his plan. Oh no... Pls dont. Stop cheating. Stop Lying pls. Dont u get sick of these shit!? i really hope that he wont get into trouble for this kinda shit and the other innocent girls, pls, dont get into this kinda shit with him! sigh..

I wonder where can i find the perfect way to live? i was reading another forum and guys there critise singaporeans girls as being too independent, too materialistic, too arrogant..etc . So how are we suppose to live? i thought guys like girls to be independent? so whose rules and regulations do we have to follow to live a good life? A life that we dont sin..too much.

Another was in a magazine abt singaporeans girls becoming more and more sluty..easily bedded. But hey look! Why are singaporean girls becoming liek that? its because their thinkings change and become more westernised. I hate it. Guys get to enjoy it and after enjoying it, they in turn throw back the name of "sluty" and "pua lock" onto girls. Girls have the right to enjoy sex too! Not all girls go for tom dick and harry. U may think that they are easily bedded coz u can get them into bed by just treating them to a mug of beer. U must somehow qualify into their criteria before you can bed them right? duh. But what about guys?! You dont even have to treat them to a mug of beer! Girls receive a mug of beer from them and can get the guys into bed. Isnt guys worse?! Why do humans always think that guys have more rights to have sex than girls!? Both are humans as well. It just depend on individual preferences. if you think u like the thrill of ONS, then go for it. But if you prefer love involves in sex, in other words, making love, then have sex only after marriage or with your guy. But, most of the time, do you think it really involves love? duh. Mostly are not true. There are dozen of guys out there wanting to bed innocent girls by getting into relationship with them. Guys only think of sex. So dont they sin even more than girls? I dont deny that girls think of sex as well but the society force them not to think if they dont wan to be considered as sulty and loose. WTF? And if girls are that proper and "guai", (as in dont think of sex at all. they think that sex is dirty), then they will no longer enjoy sex and will be named "dead fish" by guys. So wtf? to love sex ornot? It seems like no matter what girls think or do, there will always be guys to name them. And who are guys anyway?! what rights do they have to label girls!?
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5/04/2004 10:15:00 pm