Time: 1032am
Mood: irritated with my mom..sad.

i hate her. I really cant understand why must she be like a mad woman so early in the morning...since 6am..since she woke up. The minute she saw me, she screamed her head off at me and started mumbling loudly to herself. Then she left me alone. But not for long. On and off, she kept on coming into my room and scold me for talking on the phone. But what's wrong?! My exams are over and i am free!! Why must she purposely make me off the phone by making me go and wash my own clothes and clean up my room? wtf? she never ever ask my brother to wash his own clothes. I feel so much like a slave. I know i am not but i just hate the idea of that! And then she will scream like some mad woman, loudly screeching. U know what she did just now? she threw the whole chair at me! Missed by abit. Imagine what will happen if it did!? And she took a scissors, and threaten to stab me. WTF? is she really maD? what's happening? She makes me want to break down. Everytime when she picks fight on me, she makes me feel so vulnerable, so lost. I will feel very sad and all the sad things will overwhelm me. I have the ability to fight back but i dont want to hurt her. Why does she want to hurt me so much?
Frankly speaking, i hate it when my friends start to gossip about my mom. Afterall, she's my mom. Who will not be protective over her own mom? dont u love your mom also? Do you like me to gossip about ur mom? and tell the whole world about it? Tell the whole world how mad woman she is, and infront of me? I dont know. I just feel..hurt. I know she's irritating but if i have a chance to change it, do you think i will not do it? I hate it when people mind about her so much. Be it boyfriends or friends. If i can accept you for who you are, why cant u acccept me for who i am, what i have?
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5/07/2004 10:17:00 am