Right. All thanks to Han lili. I get naggings from my dad n mom everyday. I kept on telling myself not to give up but i know i am getting nearer nearer to it. Her comments made them so worried abt me. They constantly nag at me and paid alot of attention on me like a little toddler. Argh! Cant stand it. I am about to burst. Got scratches from my mom this morning coz i woke up late. First scratches, next stab with pen then what's next? wtf.

Argh. Just when i thought life is great, everything is going downhill again?

Supposed to go watch movie with him today.  But he fly plane. I wonder if he knows that i hate ppl who fly me  plane. Argh!!! We finally met up with each other yesterday, after 1 long month. Wow. that's long! Hm.. He has become tanner and looks bigger. Or did my eyes play trick on me? Sat at kopitiam chat abit, then we went to walk around JE. Wah walking around JE felt like my secondary school days. When was the last time i ever hang out at JE?? kk back.. hm. We just hang out for a few hours and then he walk me home before going home for dinner. Both of us actually agreed to meet up today to go watch movie before he book in. Like after my lessons today. Sigh but he didnt turn up when my school end. He overslept..

He make me so disappointed. But why am i disappointed? Because i cant get to catch the show? or because i cant get to spend some time with him? But why do i want to spend time with him? He told me that he's guilty for disappointing me. Like not once but twice. But is he really sincere when he tells me all these? Actually i really dont know when he says things he really mean and when he doesnt. I dont know what to trust. Sigh.  I kept on asking myself what he is trying to do. I cant see the motives. I need to see it, to ensure myself for where i am going too. Like the smses he sent me, the phone calls we used to have. Am i suppose to tell myself it doesnt mean anything at all?! Oh hell, i hate guessing games.

Notice that this is the first ever entry i wrote abt him here? k.. my thoughts are like so messed up now that even the things i type doesnt flow. Wtf is wrong? hm. I hate him when he makes me miss him so much. But actions speaks louder than words, right? then what does his actions mean? one moment yuea miss me another no miss me. So miss or dont miss? Dont care dont wana think. Be happy go lucky! Cmon..


You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7/26/2004 06:42:00 pm