Time: 12.01 am
Current Music: Everytime

Today is the first day of school and it was scarey. I felt like a lost kid in a brand new school. But i was not! I was all alone for breaks and felt like a total loser. Tried contacting my old classmates but i couldnt tell if they wanted to have lunch with me. So i bought a bread, sat at a corner and ate it all by myself. i felt friendless. At lecture, i sat all alone and listened attentively to the accounts lecture. Occassionally my mind wandered off yea. The lecturer told the year 1s to work hard and not to repeat etc. It reminds me of what happened a year ago. it felt like yesterday. But the me then did not take the advice, resulting in what i have to face today. I went to school and realise that i am a year 1 and not year 2. WTF? yes i am year 2 but i am taking most of the year 1 modules. Sigh.

i really regret. Regret for playing so much. For getting myself into so much love trouble. For skipping schools. For skipping exams. For not taking responsibility for myself. And now i am with the year 1s. I only get to graduate in 3 years time. Sigh. And the worse thing is that my timetable sucks. Its going to be a tough year. i want to achieve 100% attendence.

Guess what? i went out with Ace today! Ace and philip to be exact. Went to parklane to meet them. Watched them played lan games for a while before heading to mr bean to chat. We spend our whole night there chatting. Really enjoyed myself. i thought that it will be a long time before i will get to see ace again but he date me out again this wed for ktv with his friends! yea!!

I dont know what my heart is thinking. Who i really like and everything. Sigh. Like i feel so much for those in the past. Like ace n richel. I thought i got over them long long time ago? but i still miss them. and as for the new ones, both of them prompt me to ask me if i like them. i found myself speechless. i couldnt answer them. Because, i dont. OMG. Sigh. Or perhaps i am sooo used to being single. I hate to be attached. I wont have the time and energy anyway. WTF? so what do i want now?

going to sleep. having a long day tomorrow. From 8am to 10pm! its gonna be tough! Jia you girl!!!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7/06/2004 12:04:00 am