Hey girl.. wonder when u will read this but when u read this tag me kz.
Wanted to reply u but ur blog has no tag board.. boO. Go and get one!!

After hearing abt ur quarrel with him, it creates a kind of fear inside me again. The kind of fear of getting into a relationship. Like you want this relationship to work out so much, u put in ALL your effort and (who knows) in the end, a small little thing that he do will spark off an agurement leading to something big like betrayal..etc. That's the dark side of relationship but look at the brighter side. You may hate this person for cheating on u, but dont forget that he's the same person who makes u fall madly in love with him.

Dont bring the fears and saddness with you in this new relationship. I know its hard but its unfair if you do. Love as if you never have. Even if it fails, at least u loved. Perhaps you may hate the sickening feeling of having to go through a cycle of sad breakup, pick yourself up, look for a new guy, start a new relationship. Who doesnt? But if everyone fear and hold back their love, there will be no love in this world.

Now that you guys just started ur relationship. You are in the process of getting to know him better. I am sure u dont know him THAT well. Its just different when he's single and when he's attached. Sometimes guys/girls are not used to the idea that they are attached. They may want to hide the fact from their opposite sex friends. I am sure you felt that once too. They are not ready to accept they are attached. Its just the beginning. Perhaps u can give him sometime. Yes i know its a bad omen but time may change a person. Its all about getting used to. Be more understanding for this while. Observe him within this period of time. But if one day you really find out that he's not a good person, dump him before he hurts you. It will be more hurting to breakup after he hurts you. I know that you are like a toddler in this relationship. You have learn how to walk. But you are afraid that you may fall anytime. Just be careful. take one step at a time.

i am glad that you still care for my feelings. Actually sometimes, its just about time management. I know that you love him so much that u wana spend every single minute with him. But that's not how the world actually works. Everyone have to spend some time with their family, their friends, and themselves. Guys are like sand in our palms. When we hold it too tight, the sand spill. When we hold it too light, the wind will blow it away. When we hold it just right, it will stay right there. Love but not be pocessive. It may hurt him, hurt people around u, and even yourself. I understand that u will want to spend time with him but dont forget about ur dear friends around you, and ur studies, and ur social life. Having a boyfriend doesnt mean u are gonna cut off all connections with other friends. If you are faithful, nothing will stop u from loving him. This is something that u must work out with him. If not, before long, either one of u guys will feel very suffocated. Just like u n jim? I know that i will not hang out as much time with u like in the past. But i am contented at least u want to spare sometime to spend with me. But if you really dont, that's nothing i can do also. Perhaps its just about life. Everyone moves on.
Take care my friend. I will always be there for you.

Quote of the day "Only the best gets the best. When you are not one, dont expect people to be one too. "


Today i teared for a friend.


teared.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8/01/2004 05:10:00 pm