Calvin is coming back in 48 hours but exams are in 36 hours. I just started to feel anxious about my exams. I realised that there are so many things that i dont know about accounts. OMG. helP! I tried working on them but when i meet diffculties i gave up. I tried again and again but i simply cant work through it. I just want to pass it.. I cant afford to fail accounts again. sigh. I had been doing nothing but slacking these few days. I tried picking up my books but i gave up after a while. I think i need to change my routine.

Yesterday was chatting with him and he asked me if mom knows about him. I am surprised that he actually asked me that. I haven let mom know about calvin. I dont know what to say also. I can still remember that i used to be so excited to show Richel to mom. Few weeks to our relationship, i brought him home to my dad's birthday celebration. I think i was abit too rush into things and that make him feel very stressed up. You know, guys are committment freak. They dont like to know that they are consider part of ur family so soon? while girls are different. I always wish that my boyfriend will introduce me to his family and include me as part of his family. It makes me feel comfortable and give me a sense of security. After richel's episode, i told myself not to rush into introducing my boyfriend to my family. Mainly becacuse i dont want to stress them up.

I felt really glad that Calvin actually initiate the idea that he want my family to know about him. He even suggested to bring them out for dinner some time soon. =) When it comes to boyfriend, mom and dad are pretty nice people but they are traditonal chinese parents. They need some time to get use to them. ANd first impressions are very important. Its better to arrange a day to make good first impression if i wana show calvin to them. Calvin says his mom sort of know about me also. We met once when his mom came over to Singapore to shop. It was a last min thing. I hope i gave her an "ok" impression. I was introduced as 'friend' to his mom. But guess his mom know abt it esp when he chats with me online every night in her room. =X

I want to take things slowly. Dont want to rush. I hope that Calvin will understand but i am not sure how am i suppose to put the message across. I want him to make a perfect first impression to my parents. And the same goes with his side. I dont want our parents to give any negative comments on either one of us. =) Let's hope things go smoothly!

Going out with the girls later. Haven been clubbing for two weeks already! wow! i am craving for alcohol, drinks and smoke! I want to enjoy myself tonight!! and tml morning will be my gym and study time. people! have lotsa fun tonite yea!!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10/22/2004 07:48:00 pm