Anxiety. Increase heart beat. Increase heart Pressure. Insomia. Inability to control my anger and my fustration.

Dont you think i sound like i am on Ectascy or K?! What's wrong with me man? Didnt go to work today. Went to Loyang to pray with zane n hugen. After that we went back to orchard to slack our day away, finally deciding to go to Feng Seng for Kuey Chap! We had a good girls chat over supper. Zane ate a huge lot. OMG. wonder what got into her! She ate two bowls of kuey chap!! hahaha..

I hope i am ok. I hope all these will reduce if not i am going to seek help from doctor soon. I cant sleep! and when i do i have scarey nightmares! Last nite i had two nightmares altogether! In one dream, i dreamt that a cat pounced on me. It was really cute but it pounced on my right hand and scratch it. It cut through my skin so deep that i could see the bone. I could feel the intense pain in my dream. It felt so real. My dark eye rings are getting from bad to worse. i look so ugly! i wonder what's wrong with me. I cant go on losing sleep like that. School is starting next week. I am looking forward to it so much! I want to excel my studies!! I passed my exams and everything is ok now. I dont have to repeat stats for a year. I only need to do it for half a year. Isnt that a blessing from god? thank you god. i want to promise myself that i will concentrate this semester. I have enough of playing. Calvin wont be around so i must concentrate on school and making money. Dont think so much abt him. He will be back soon! one month fly past fast! Cmon!

I need to earn more money to get me to tour somewhere. I want to get out of the country! any takers wana go tour with me? just a short one? i dont mind a company. But no guys pls. I prefer girls. let me go and relax.. pls.... If no takers, i will be going backpacking alone. Go somewhere alone relax enjoy. i am becoming more and more a loner. omg.


You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12/08/2004 04:20:00 am