i got into trouble today at work. i push a customer at his head and scolded him fuck u. i also dont know what got into me, i just cant control my anger at all. he expects me to beg him for a fifteen dollars worth of ladies drink? maybe i am just too stressed up.

stressed up over everything! ahhh..

calvin's going back at end of this week. he wont be coming back till end of the month. that will mean not seeing him for the entire one month! and i will have to spend christmas all alone. sigh. i think i am going to start missing him all over again. *sob* i am kinda sad that he's leaving but i should be a more understanding girlfriend. he has his own stuffs at home that he need to do. i cant expect him to be around all the time! but i really really really will miss him alot. =(

i am at calvin's house right now with zane n hugen. just now when i was crying so hard they came to my rescue. after that we had a round of drinks and ate. hang around a while. now i cant sleep. alot of things on my mind. i love him so much! i am suffocating!!! i need to earn more money!!! ahhh.. i am so sick.

i am down with fever n flu. ahhh.. i dont know la. i just want to rest in my darling's arms.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12/07/2004 04:27:00 am