i cant sleep. Seriously i dont know what is wrong with me. I am very drunk now. Usually when i am drunk, i fall asleep quickly. I will puke and den drop onto bed and snore my way till dawn. But i didnt today. I am up here, world spinning with norah jones singing and typing on this blog.

Norah jones remind me of darling. That's his CD. I took it from him when he was living at regalia. I dont know why but i thought alot abt regalia and him now. Especially the days we spend at regalia. Those days are the most exciting and beautiful days we spend in our relationship. I miss those days really much. Really. I feel like crying so much but i really dont know why. My tears just dont flow. I just feel sad. Very sad. i cant understand why that feeling.

I miss him so much. He's in hanoi now. He didnt even msg me today. i thought i am supposed to be very used to him very far away. But now that he's further, i miss him even more. we are really drifting apart. I wish he can be back sooner. I think its another four more weeks to go, that makes it one more month. i really really really miss him. ah god. why must u make me miss him so much? i rather i am not so i wont care so much. I really miss the good old times at regalia but i know things are never the same anymore. He feels that one shouldnt settle down at this age. one should flirts around. Sigh. what the hell! is there really kama in this world? it never happen to me at all. Nothing good ever happen to me! why?!

or is it because i am feeling lonely that's why i miss him sooooo much? is it because valentines day is around the corner? i am going to spend this day alone. Ru found her new lover. she's not gonna spend sister day with me. Sigh. i should just fuck off out of everyones life. i hate this. i hate this phrse of my life. i should just be a nerd and concentrate on my studies and work very hard and study omg just freakiung study u asse.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2/12/2005 05:06:00 am