is it one of my PMS aka mood swings or is it really me? I noticed that i have been getting angry with everyone lately. And i have been thinking and feeling that almost every guy i meet are loser.

Guess where i went for valentine's day celebration? I went out with this guy whom i barely know coz he's one of the three that asked me out. The second was JH and the third was Shawn. If Shawn asked me earlier, i will definately go out with him. Went out with Des out of desperation. He suggested going to mandrain hotel for buffet dinner and den chill at the bar over there. Sounded nice so i agreed. But when we met up, instead of going to buffet dinner, we went to Kopitiam to eat Prata and nasi brani instead. OMG. Its valentine's day ya know? Ok nvm. Den we went to mandrain hotel to chill. The place kinda sucks though the wine was nice and Ru's presence makes the whole experience a better one. I dont like the place coz they dont play any music at all. Dont feel that chill out. We sat there the whole night doing nothing and i didnt receive any presents from him at all. How thoughful. Ru made my day by buying me this nice perlini necklace that i love! Thanks muackz! No guy fulfilled my dream of receiving a valentine's day flower. No one. So sad. Seriously i want to receive a flower so much. Haven receive flowers for a long long time. One big bouquet. The last one was from Wenbin almost two years ago during my concert. He bought me two bouquets before i think. One for my concert one for valentine's day. So sweet. ah. enough abt flowers. I freakin didnt receive any bouquet of flowers this year!!!!!!! :(

Next went out with JH today for jap food and movie. Gosh he was a xiasway! I know i sound really mean talking abt him this way but he was! He was acting like a kid and trying to be cute to the waitress. Can u imagine a guy of twenty plus acting cute? Gosh. And he make a huge fuss requesting this and that. I was soooo embarassed i am his date! This is the first time i ever feel this way. Gosh. He made me wait for him twice. And twice he didnt get where we are supposed to meet even though i told him sooo many times! I can never stand a guy appearing cheap skate or un civilised to me.

Gosh. Two losers in a roll. Where are all the good guys in this world?!

As usual, darling is super heck care abt me. No msges, no calls. He's back in HCM now and i made him promise to come online at nite but he didnt. I guess he fell asleep. i called him but no answer. Or who knows? maybe he dont simply dont bother.

Had been working out. Today i measured myself and realised that instead of increasing 2 kgs in 1 week, i added one more kg. OMG. I am back to normal now. I am back to the fat fat now! OMG. I must start losing weigh all over again. So sad. Dont let life be fucked up again. Oh pls.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2/16/2005 12:19:00 am