Went out with this guy today. Thank god! He's not a loser! If not i will say i met 3 losers in 3 days! Surprisingly, he's rather cute and he's quite good looking too. Dont look like his age. he's full of ambitions and ideas. Left a good first impression. He does behaves like his age coz most of the guys at this age divert all their attention on work. Nice nice. And he drives my fav car too. A very nice black neat rex. But he bumped his car onto the curb today!! OMG. i felt so freaking heart ache for him! Ah.. somehow i dont feel as excited sitting in a rex as before. My heart dont beat hard anymore. aw. Wish to keep in contact with him! =)

Reached home at 1+am and came online. Saw calvin still online(think he was waiting for me?) i dont know what's wrong with him but he sounded angry and the things he said pissed me off. He doesnt want to tell me things and said that there's not a need. What the fuck is wrong with him? He affects my emotions so much that i almost cried. What the hell? why am i so weak? Oh girl. Dont be controlled my ur emotions. U must be controlled by ur mind!

Somehow or another our quarrel subsided. I msged him to make sure he's ok. Sometimes i feel that its really taxing on me. I wish that a relationship can be smooth sailing, so perfect without any problems. I really wonder what does a guy looks for in a gf? i want and try to be a perfect gf but is it really worth it?

dont give me any more troubles pls.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2/17/2005 02:48:00 am