I caught him lied again. This time, my reaction was mild. I was shaking inside, stomach did too many flip flops but i pretended that i was ok. I talked to him nicely and when he admited i didnt scream my head out. i acted as if everything was ok. I think everything was ok. or am i just too numb? Ru is right. This is a vicious cycle. He will never change and since that patch up, i already gave in to all his unreasonable requests and wrong doings. I chose to accept everything so why am i brooding over it again?

These few days with him had been quite happy. minus that 2 lies. i just have to remind myself that i dont give a fuck abt him and i have a life. I know he still flirts behind my back and who knows whether he fucked around ornot. that hurts too much to find out.

i wish i am not a cancer. =(

and i binged again. alot alot.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3/07/2005 08:31:00 pm