Surprised that how fast things changes within one to two days.

I did alot of sinful things today! Gosh. I had a Burger King Mushroom swiss burger, small fries and coke. OMG! And i drank a dozen of red wines and Martel coke. OMG! More sugar again!!! =( boo hoo hoo.

I dont want to change. Remember, i am a girl with life. I dont want to meet him. I dont need him in my life. he's just an addition, a bonus. With or without him, i live well and happy. I dont need to care abt him. Ren shi fan jian de. Ni yue bu yao guan ta, ta yue ai ni. Ni yao ta ai ni ma? na jiu bu yao guan ta.(quoted by linda) I really think it works very well. I dont know if its because he really miss me or because of my cold attitude.. But it really happened.

He is back but i gave him a cold shoulder when he told me he's back and he got quite sad and pissed off. We even quarreled over it but after that everything resume to normal. I met up with him and he was so much more caring, we had so many more things to talk about, and i could feel affection. He even send me home. I wish that the beautiful things will continue. So in order for the beautiful things to continue, i am not going to care. I am not going to be the weakling elaine whose life only have him. I dont care abt him. He dont tell me things, i dont care. Its not like i will feel better finding out if its a truth, a white lie or a deliberate lie. I dont own him so i dont need to find out so many things.

I realised that human are always finding means of ways to conqueor another human. What's all these ties, all these relationships, all these races, all these religions for? its to group people. Its to manage people. Human use these ways to control another human being's movement and heart. They do that to make sure that someone will be around when they need them. Human are selfish. They get married because they want to own a husband or a wife in name. So that they can perform duties of husband and wifes officially for them.

But sometimes people just dont like to be controlled. They like to go against nature. That's when all the genetic clons, challenging the sky with rockets..blabla come up. Human try to go against nature. They love that. So the more u dont control them, the more they will miss ur absence and the more desperate they are and want u back. Bear that in mind manz.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3/03/2005 04:23:00 am