Lotsa things happened today and my emotions were like on a roller coaster. One moment i am anticipating it, feeling all excited, next i regreted my choice and started to get angry with myself, finally i feel glad and overjoyed that the roller coaster ride was a good one. Today is the BIG INTERVIEW DAY.

Couldnt sleep and stayed up till dawn. Finally fell asleep but i had to force myself out of bed just to go for the interview. I woke up myself ok!!! Meaning i am not such a pig afterall. =) I woke up one hour later than i wanted to but i still managed to reach airport on time (by cab! *ouch* damn broke. Sigh heartache.) I dont know why but i didnt feel confident at all when i went there today. I screwed everything up in the interview room. I gave a very short description of myself and i focused on the wrong things. We had to speak to a panel of 8 judges, 7 are japanese. As i was the fourth one to speak, i was so lost in my own world. I think its the large amt of judges that scared me away. I felt so wrong and i was so angry with myself. What's worse was that we had to go to a skin check and we could choose whether to put on stockings ornot. Since i have a large scar on my leg, i have to put the stockings on. And guess what? I tore my stockings. How Suey can things be??

Went to dar's house feeling dejected. I was so pissed off with everything that i wasnt in the proper mood to talk to anyone. I felt so lonely for a while coz everyone was sleeping and no one is there to comfort me. I took a long ride to dar house and half way, i was so hungry that i almost fainted. *Another bad thing* Dropped off at marine parade to grab something to eat before i hop onto a cab. I couldnt help but just to keep on blaming myself for being so stupid and screwed things up. There were still butterflies in my stomach. I felt terrible! All i could do was to sleep. Sleep to heal the pain and to temp forget abt it. When i woke up, i eargerly check my hp but there were no calls! *sob*

Slacked around a while before i decided to go to mario's bbq. I thought hanging out will help me to heal up my pain just in case i dont gt any calls for the night. Its better to do something to distract me rather than sit around and wait right? Bumped around and finally at 8+ pm, i saw this unknown number appeared on my phone. Could it be from JAL?! OMG! I picked up the phone and...............BINGO!!!!!!!!!!!! I got through the interview!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHH!!!! i cant believe it. I thought i did really badly for the interview. I was practically begging and aguring with the judge for the job. lol. OMG!!!!! But not yet, i still have to go for the final final round of health check before officallly signing the contract. OMG! I thought it was all a dream. lolz. But!!! There's one more thing that's bothering me now because i think i am the 2nd intake girls who are supposed to start training in august. But i dont want to sit around for 3 months and rot! Omg pls no. Gotta call them up tml to confirm it and try to see if there's anything i can do to change it. =D

Mario's bbq was....delicious!!!!! his friend who's a chef cooked this mashmelow with baileys!!!!! OMG!!! Its damn good trust me! and not forgetting that juicy piece of beef cube! *yummy* Had a good time eating and chatting though we didnt really mingle around with their friends. We(the girls) are like anti socials. lolz. Proceeded on to ktv at a boat quay pub. argh. Ah beng place. -_-. But i got to sing a few of my favourite songs!!

Here's the bbq pics. Dont later scold me for not posting them up ah!!
I am so fat!!

Terry n shit what's his name? lol

the grp photo! Stop looking, i am not inside. If i am, then who's gonna take this photo? hehe


hm.. haven decide on some things yet. Got some very important decisions to make but i am running out of time. Have to try to wake up early tomorrow.

Lastly, I WANA FLY I WANA FLY I WANA FLY!!!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@4/25/2005 03:32:00 am