Had a taxing emotional day today. My intitution was leading me throughout the whole day. I dont want to believe it but i really cant. Have been very disappointed. Still disappointed with him. He lied again. And he ran away from responsibilities and explanations. I kept on sheding him. I come up with unreasonable excuses just to cover him up but all i see is the harsh reality slapping me on my cheek. I felt as if a wrinkly discursting, stinky, green hand hold up my chin and slap me coldly with the other similar hand. It slapped none stop. "wake up!", it screams. I dont want to assume things. I only want him to tell me. Talk to me. Tell me that you have nothing to hide. Show me the facts. Regain my trust. But i was left there alone, facing the ringtones that goes unanswered. My questions went unanswered, my mind was like a blur.

I had my share of fun despite the unhappy stuffs. As long as i dont think of him, i am perfectly fine. Went to bar none to meet up with weiming. Danced around and drank followed by devils. I was just so over dressed for devils. I wore my phuture london dress! Wee~~*

After being together with him for 7 months, he still cant be honest with me. I really dont know what to say. *speechless* I hate it when people lie to me. Why cant he tell me that he has friends with him? What's there to hide? Did i ever blow my top when he hangs out with steven? He rathers hang out with his friend than explain anything to me. just when i am typing all these out, i see the truth that i dont want to see. Silly me. i really wish that all these are not true. troubles, fucking get lost. i was enjoying my peace till you knock on me.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5/15/2005 06:20:00 am