I have questions on my mind:
When you are sad over something, will you act like you are sad and cry your heart out?? Let it brood you all day??

Or will you pretend like you are not, try to be strong, smile and behave like normal and not let the problem affect your life? of course you will have ur sad times but you try to supress it till the last moment than you cry out loud and release yourself?? Which one do you prefer to be?

I used to be the first. I brood over the problems all day all weeks and eventually i got into a bad depression. I was fat and ugly and unattractive. But now that i managed to more or less act like the second one, i wondered if its because i am fake? or is it because i was trying so hard to be stronger, or is it because i dont care so much anymore? So what am i??

Close friends around me should know that i am not in a good mood these few days. Life still carry on as usual except the sudden outburst of my overpowering emotions at times. Isnt that what an adult should do? A mature adult is like a clown in the circus. He must know how to juggle balls and do them very well. He must be able to control his emotions, act like normal, smile at people, talk to people, talk to himself to persuade himself that he can be happy, act happy, be happy, be understanding, solve problems, act like the problems dont bother him, dont binge so he wont get fat, but secretly binge alot because his mood sucks, and finally, back to square one. Its like a whole big cycle. -_- So many tasks, but only one person. Is our brain really that powerful? what happen if our brain break down some day?!!

Anyway, i hope my mood will get better with better solutions to the problems.

OMG!! i am having pimples again!! OMG OMG OMG!!! But ru did commented that i am having better and clearer skin now. =D and i met this guy who happend to know chloe!! ahhhHhhH!!! the world is so small. -_-. hahahahhahahahaa..
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5/19/2005 08:11:00 am