its 2.53am and i am wide awake. I have to work later but i couldnt sleep. I think i am going to look like a walking zombie later. Help me! My body clock is upside down. I tried to sleep at 12am just now but i jumped up when my mom switched on the lights at 1am. I couldnt sleep. I just kept on worrying abt everything and i kept on dreaming about him. wtf?! just sleep! dont dream!

and that explains why i am up at this hour. I am supposed to wake up a little later.. like 45 mins later but i haven prepare anything at all. That's why i am so nervous and woke up so early. I am sooo tired now.

was i lying to myself all these times? i realised that i miss him. i feel suffocated. argh. I do not look forward to anything anymore. That sounds scarey to me. i need to run away again.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9/20/2005 02:56:00 am