Had a wonderful dinner today! I was at Pan Pacific, kayaki in the evening. Manz.. they serve one of the best tepanyaki in Singapore! I think its one of the most expensive dinner i have eaten in my whole life(not including those that my dad brings me to). Hehe. I love the kobe beef!!! Its so delicious! Oiishi! And i must really compliment their excellent customer service. They were very sensitive to the customer's needs and i felt that my dinner was very well taken care of. A must try if u guys are a lover of tepanyaki. Yup, i think i will never get bored of japanese food. I think i am learning to like it more and more.

After dinner, we met up with some other friends. I had so many good laughs at all their experiences. I love listening to people talk. I realised that i can learn so much from them. This is what i call a simple but enjoyable night. =) Moreover, i wore my new dress! Its this floral dress, very sun dress like. I love it to nuts! But i think i'll get comments that it looks abit like pyjamas.(my mom already commented it once.-_-)Hehe. But i dont care. I simply love it!

I think i should continue to stay single for a while, or perhaps for a long long while. I am not ready for a relationship and i dont want to risk my emotions and waste other people's time and money. I cant even take good care of myself, how can i allow myself to get into a relationship, where i have to spare some of my attention to care for someone else? I expect so much so much from my partner, but can i satisfy him the same way? I doubt so. I always over estimate myself. I always think that i make a great girlfriend. I always think its because the guy doesnt treasure me. But i think its more like i didnt make myself worth it to be treasured and loved. i am not as good as i thought! I didnt contribute to help my ex's life become better. I demanded attention and even when i was with them, i still checked them with a check list. If they dont hit any on the checklist, i would make a fuss and try to get their attention to be what i want them to be. I acted like a childish and petty kid. If mama dont buy toys for me, i would stamp my foot and bawl. I guess he was right. hm. Now i can gradually see the reason.

I may have so many reasons but at the end of the day, if i meet a guy i fancy, will i really hold myself back? Since i know where it goes wrong, why dont i work on it and make myself a better person? Right, i will embark on this quest to make myself a better person!! I think its better to love and careful for someone truthfully den swinging urself from one relationship to another. What do u gain from that?

Another blog full of crap again. Sigh. I think its time to get my butt moving and get out of the country. Time to go somewhere where nobody knows me, where i can just be by myself, sleep, fag, munch on snacks, shop, watch tv.. let myself relax for a while. In other words, run away. Actually i like my life right now. When i am free, i would hang out with friends, go clubbing, shopping or go on dates...but it only leads me to thinking alot too. I am using my brain cells for the wrong reason. I cant help it. I guess i am just too free. Its not like when i am out of town i dont think as much but i would just shrug them aside and carry on my tv session. ahhh..whatever. Let me be.

I dont remember when i owned this song but i fell in love with it when i heard it today. Like the way Jason mraz sing this song. He sounded like what i feel. hmmm..


You and i both-Jason Mraz

Was it you who spoke the words
That things would happen but not to me
All things are gonna happen naturally
Oh, taking your advice and I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing

Oh, but at often times, those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright light turns to night
Oh, until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others only read of
Others only dream of the love
Oh, the love that I love
Love-ah-love-ah

See, I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
More words than I had ever heard
And I feel so alive

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Oh love, love, you and I, you and I
Not so little, you and I anymore
Mmm hmm
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving
Is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well, then I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally de de de de de de de, well I'm almost finally, finally
Well, I am free, oh I'm free

And it's okay
If you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephones
Well, they're working in both ways
But if I never, ever hear it ring
If nothing else
I'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else
And that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
And if you could see me now
Well, then I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally de de de de de de de de
Well I'm almost finally
Finally out of words
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10/19/2005 02:35:00 am