I had a great day today.. fabulous flight with great crews(though i screwed up my biz class galley, they were all very helpful and taught me so many things along the way), even greater CNY(those days spent in SFO were pretty enjoyable), and a very peaceful n lazy afternoon in narita..

Didnt brood over the unhappy stuffs. They didnt came knocking on my mind. I managed to fall asleep on times when i should. I didnt wake up in the morning feeling an acute ache in my heart. i didnt feel extremely tired on my flight. i didnt cry. i didnt feel the crazy urge to dial any unnecessary numbers on my cell. i didnt binge alot(though i ate a relatively high amt of fried food n carbo!). i didnt do so many foolish things and i actually thought i was okay.

But a call today spoiled my day. Spoiled my mood to laze around, spoiled my mood to give myself the beauty sleep i deserve.. spoiled all that i thought was okay. It was a call from him.

Felt as if i was in pluto when i saw this "(name should not be spoken) bb" in my inbox. I still managed to fall asleep for 2 hs..till the phone gave a ring with that name shall not be spoken flashing. It was like a total mixed feeling..rojak! I was fustrated but delighted, excited but felt an overwhelming sense of apprehension. The call ended that way too. It put me on cloud 9 and then moments later plunged me into the murky sea of dejection. He really didnt have to do that. Manz. If he didnt bother, he really dont have to make small talks or call me to see if i am okay. I am okay if u didnt call. Get it? If u call, bring some good news. If its bad news, i rather u disappear from this earth forever. Forever. period.

Totally spoiled my day. He was the one who makes me fall for him and now he is the one who choose to live without me. He really dont have to do that. I had a wonderful CNY. and i am expecting to have a wonderful 2006. I dont like playing games with ya.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1/31/2006 03:04:00 am