i think i am going crazy. I have been tossing and turning in my bed, did everything i could, drank, smoke, read, even ate melantonin(sleeping pills) and i am still widely awake now!! Its already 7.38am! if i am not going crazy, then i am probably going to die of exhaustion.

i dont know what am i exactly waiting for. The moment i closed my eyes, everything started flooding back. All that i planned to do, all that i want to do, all that i thought i am going to do, everything just flood back! i couldnt even rest at all. My eyes are weary and sleepy but my brain doesnt want to stop at all. I think i am hoping for an answer, a positive one. All these melancholy thoughts are torturing me, driving me nuts.

Supposed to meet esther later in the afternoon. Sorry girl, i really cant sleep. argh.

i feel like calling him but i just want to leave him alone. for now. pls. let me sleep.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1/23/2006 07:35:00 am