Spent the whole day reading Mama Gena's Owners and operators guide. Very interesting and inspiratonal. Got very inspired. I got it at a bargain in the store's sales. From $21 to US$4.98! Thanks for the note on the tag board too. I want to give it a shot so much. My mind's pretty much decided but i cant help feeling the fear to try.

Took a baby step, tried to express my views to him and ended up spending an hour plus on the overseas call quarreling. And he didnt seemed to be listening. I am feeling so dejected and depressed. Out of pique, i feel like running away, find some secluded spot and hide there forever.

Everyone knows that i dont need a man to live. I have a wonderful happening life, who needs a man anyway? But i chose to have him and i want things to work out. Instead, i seem to be more unhappy instead. There seems to be this little evil working his way trying to stop me though i have more or less decided that i want to carry on fighting for what i want, who i love.

i guess i just have to keep on trying. I believe that one day my views will be heard.

Updated: I cant wait to come home on Sunday. Have been planning a little surprise and i cant wait for it to happen. HEHEHE. Wonder if it'll backfire again(as usual) but nevertheless, i am still so excited that i cant help to keep thinking abt it!!! *jumps around!*

I am so typical cancer. One moment i can be so angry and pissed off and the next i am smiling and feeling so happy abt the same thing. So tempremental that i almost cant stand myself! Reflecting abt our agurement just now, i think its rather funny. Especially the part when i keep insisting that i am very calculative about money. And then he giggled and laughed about it. I realy didnt mean that thing that i said. Just out of a fit of anger. And i was very surprised coz its the first real time that i raised my voice so loudly on someone. Maybe its coz i was all alone in the hotel room and that nobody really cares what kind of noise i make here. haha.

i cant wait to come back. oh pls pls pls! =D 3 more days to go! Enjoy ur weekends while i am NOT around. =( boo.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3/10/2006 12:15:00 pm