i was staring at my friendster profile. I just kept on staring and staring..and i come to realised something. OMG! i am sooooooooo young! =X I just changed my age from 85 to the real age. yup..like back to the real age. I forgot that i am, young. The fact of my real age cant seem to really translate properly into my brain. I feel like a much older woman trapped in a young girl's body. I haven been feeling young at all. I even forgot that i cant watch RA legally! You know, i have been so used to doing everything and that..everything feels so natural.

But i dont mind feeling the way i feel. Just wierd when i stared at my age. And the fact that i am hitting my 20s sounds very scarey. I am anticipating it.. but at the same time, i dont know whats going to stay and whats going to change.

I still couldnt believe that i forgot that i am young. So i decided to msg my buddy on msn.
RuRu says:
what u mean by forgot
[elaine]..I forgot that i am young. . says:
i didnt realised that i am so young
[elaine]..I forgot that i am young. . says:
that i am 19!
[elaine]..I forgot that i am young. . says:
omg omg omg
RuRu says:
hmm
RuRu says:
but we r 20 this yr
[elaine]..I forgot that i am young. . says:
but not yet!!!
RuRu says:
haha
[elaine]..I forgot that i am young. . says:
omg omg omg!
RuRu says:
young meh
RuRu says:
i feel so old already
[elaine]..I forgot that i am young. . says:
yes!! Very young and so underage
[elaine]..I forgot that i am young. . says:
LOL

I do remember my age but its just a number that's registered into my head! Nothing about the fact that 19 is really...young. I think we should all enjoy our youth while we all still can. Before we turn old and wrinkly. =X

anyway i did something today. Its going to be the first, and the last. Yup.. my hopes were actually raised but it seems like its going to plunge down again. Flying off tomorrow for a 7 days pattern. Gonna visit like 3 places in all. KUL, NRT n SGN. I cant wait for a good detoxification and a relaxing spa session. Thus...a spa session in saigon! Wee! I owe myself all these. I need to pamper my skin and my body. =X

gonna escape from this place real soon. Keep in touch via net guys!

P.S: While chatting with my buddy just now, we came up with a silly idea(but i love it to bits!)-SSG aka Single support Group. LOL. We came up with a list we are going to accomplish and of course we will get as many people to join us. Non singles can apply too! Its going to be a hell great fun! My life is not going to be just about drinking, smoking and clubbing anymore! *wink* Its going to get exciting and we're going to do all sorts of things that we've been thinking of doing for years but never bother to accomplish. hehe. Really looking forward to all the healthier activities! we're going to meet more people while having fun! oO i cant wait!!!!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@4/03/2006 04:14:00 am