My birthday is coming. In approximately a month's time. I am trying to crack my brains out to think of a proper celebration. Dont know what i should do! Manz.. Hoping not to do it a big big celebration. Coz there seriously aint a need.

Let me recall what i did last year. Oh i spent my birthday with jam. Whoa it has been a year. He was sweet. hehe. I guess i enjoyed my bday lots last year. We went clubbing at Velvet. Very small little celebration. I was still having my training at that time. hmm.. time flies. Ouch. i am older by one year. NO, i should say, finally older by a year. =)

I bumped around too much throughout the year. Life undergo some major changes-my job, my friends. Dated someone who broke my heart. Changed my perspectives. Complexion got a little better. Had my fair share of happiness, and times when i felt so dejected, in some scarey dark pit.

The future is a blur. I still remember that when i was in my primary school, i had to write this chinese essay-CrossedRoad. There's this picture which shows a girl standing in the middle of 3 paths, lost. I feel as if i am there. Except I cant see whats up infront. Everything's a blurrrrrrrr. Somehow i know what i want for myself, be it that job, the kind of money, my friends, my possessions, the guy. But i dont know where to find my courage. It seems too far to be reached. Everything feels just like a dream. Unrealistic. Esteem puncture. hm..

So far, i am planning to do my birthday celebration one week earlier. Since most of the girls cant make it on my real day. Humph. Will be either doing the celebration at MOS or Zouk. Do stay tune.

As for my wishlist, i am contemplating a plan. There's this thing that has been on my wish list for years and nobody has been able to fulfill it, not even myself. I really wish to get a cute doggie. Take this as a suggestion. I am hoping that u guys can chip in to my Project Dog. Hehe. Dont need to hunt high and low for my birthday presents. I wish that you guys can get me Project Dog Hong Baos so that i can get a certain percentage of sponsorship for my dog. Unless someone's so nice enough to get me my dream dog? haha.

I am planning to get either a silky terrier, a minature snachzer or a cute little white maltese. The decision is up to you. I hope with the sponsorship, i can get my dog before my birthday. Let me know if u all are interested. If not, i think i will just let this wish sit for another year.. =)
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5/26/2006 02:02:00 pm