i cant help sulking as summer is coming to a close. I havent shop enough of short HOT mini skirts, bright cute bikinis, baby tees, tank tops, sun glasses.. i havent even go sun tan at LA!!! Time past so fast that i didnt even have time to catch a breather from last winter and then all of a sudden, i see all the shops having "end of season" summer sales, with the fall-winter collections already neatly folded on the shelves.

Yea fear not, Singapore is summer all year round. But what about when i am overseas?! =( I hate the idea of walking around in heavy thick winter wear, dull boring black, blue, grey attire, dry itchy skin, shopping out on the chilly streets..
I personally prefer HOT HOT HOT! Alright, not as hot as vegas right now 42 degrees but i want something in between like in the weather in the 20s..oOo.. Looks like its time to stock up long sleeves soon. My cooler clothes are so limited.

Yea, time past so fast. Last year at this time, i was in Tokyo having my training. Alone in some wierd place, lonely, heartbroken..Phew. I am glad it was all over. I felt quite horrible even though it was very short term. At that time, I kept on blaming myself for not putting in enough effort, for not showing enough concern.. Its more of like regreting not doing what could have been done. But somehow or rather, he was also selfish because he didnt want to go through that 1 1/2 months, with me somewhere far from him, and him away from Spore too. But if he could foresee that he cant go through that 1 1/2 months, why did he bother to start in the first place? oh well, people make mistakes.

Perhaps this is the same reason why guys dont want to date stewardesses. They cant bear having their girlfriend somewhere far far away. It is almost like having a long distance relationship. Just that the girlfriend gets to come home every one week. The gf is never there when he needs her. Be it physically or mentally. They dont want to go through "unnecessary" saddness, quarrels, misunderstandings, missing that somebody. Why go through all the hassle to date a crew when you can date someone ordinary, on the ground 24/7, be there readily whenever and wherever. Yea this is a freaking selfish one sided thinking! Everyone only sees this side. But whatever from the crew's pt of view?

(this view does not represent all crew's point of view)
Can you imagine yourself in the crew's shoe?

You have to go on flight, work hard, stand for hours, bend up and down like what feels like ten thousand times, attentive to pax, adjust to the time difference, straight 24hours no sleep, clean up stuffs..and at the end of a long tiring flight, you board the crew bus, turned on your handphone. One minute past. Another minute gone.. You think that perhaps your ear has some hearing problem. You didnt hear the phone beep. Or perhaps its some connection problems. Or maybe your phone is not working.. blala you come up with all kind of excuses just to make yourself feel better but the truth is that...after a tough tiring long flight, YOU HAVE NO FREAKING MESSAGE! Not one fr your deary. Can you imagine the disappointment? You're alone, far far away from home, no call, no msg..nothing from your SO. While your SO gets on with his life back at home, you hear no news from him, as if he has totally erase you. And then there is the trust issue. People tend to have this misconception about crews. Good looking girls and flying girls does not immediately equates to unfaithful and sluts and flings. The guys cant trust the gf overseas.. but how about the gf? Can the guy really can resist temptations while the gf is away? Just look at the amount of girls at clubs. Dont bullshit its just friends. Friends dont hold hands and kiss.

I think it takes 2 very mature thinking adults to maintain such kind of relationship. Both must have a clear picture of what they want and where they are heading. Besides the trust issue and the msg issue, there are more that i want to address but well.. i am too tired right now. Inspirations dry.
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Last night at phutre was FUN FUN FUN! Though i saw some things i shouldnt. hmm.. but it didnt affect me completely. =) girls! Let's dance our night away again!!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7/20/2006 05:49:00 pm