I did my painting for three freaking times but its still ruin in the end! so angry that i decided to leave it till tml morning.. its going to be a hell rush!

Did my grooming class today! wee finally! I was asked to be the model for the class..was i lucky or was i sway? I enjoyed the class but i was for a while not very comfortable with myself exposing my panda dark eye rings, pimply bare face to everyone in the class! I've been breaking out lately..think i need more sleep. And my skin is suffering from very bad discolouration. Not that it was perfect in the past but i think as compared it was better. Sigh. I am alright with not wearing makeup out..but i am not very comfortable with 20 pairs of eyes staring at me, watching me transform from bare face to intense makeup. You get what i mean? It was just uncomfortable and unflattering! I guess i was so uncomfortable that it showed on my face. I couldnt even force out a smile! Oops.. i didnt mean it! i was very self conscious..especially when i was the only one in the class with that makeup and the rest were in normal ones.

But after lunch, i felt at ease with that..the girls transformed to be like me! so i didnt felt that bad! I look alright in both colors but i guess the one that my destiny is sealed looks more flattering. weee~* My dad saw me and he said i look like wayang lady. Alright alright alright..

I cant make a decision! and its beginning to bother me. My actions and my thoughts dont tally. This feels so wierd. Perhaps i only like man who can break my heart.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10/26/2006 11:56:00 pm