I read in a friend's blog that he's getting married...and then heard from another friend that our common friend L is getting married next year too. and i've got a couple of friends who has kids.. kids as in real living thing that cry, run and fart! It's so erm.....scary hearing all of it.

Oh don't get me wrong.

Marriage is great, so is having kids. And i LOVE wedding dinner(it always feel so happy, romantic and fairytale-like and there's shark fin. lol) But the idea of marriage (and having kids) seems such and adult thing...I just left teenhood like 4 mths ago. It feels weird that everyone is behaving so adult! I know this isn't the worse yet. Wait till i start attending wedding dinners (while being single), be jiemei's for my besties weddings, start brainstorming of what to buy for my future god daughters or start hinting to my future significant other that my biological clock is ticking and i desperately wants to be like the rest! that when the real thing hits and the horrifying parts begin!

Like i said, marriage is great. But dating for me has always come without a hidden agenda and it is still the same so far. i cant stand the thought of it when guys or girls date each other with a hidden agenda because they want to bond each other down with a legal contract so that they can apply for a flat or be socially accepted to have babies. I don't want to be dating my future significant other for a while and then start hinting that i need/want to get married. It's not something i want to do but i cant help being worried that i will become one some day. It's as bad as being left on the shelves! OMG!

Maybe part of me still believes in some fairy tales and romance. I dont want to hastily jump into marriage just because i need to get married! I want to be sure that i want to spend the rest of my life with this person, live with him, eat with him, have fun with him, go through thick and thins with him..and vice versa. So when is being ready ever ready? Will that feeling kicks in some day when i meet "the one"? or it kicks in when i see number BIG 3 coming?

Whatever it is now, i think i'll leave this to the back of my head. It's not something to worry now especially now that i dont have a specific significant other in my life. When it comes, it comes.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12/12/2007 12:07:00 am