The whole episode feels so surreal.

As i lay comfortably in my bed, and high from the three quarter of a bottle of red wine i drank just now, it feels impossible that the episode happen but it did. I just gotta face the facts. I aint sure i saw anything..but indeed i saw something and as the hurtful words ran through my mind, i cant help feeling tears rolling down my cheeks.

For one hour, i sat there watching jackass trying to make myself laugh but in the midst of my laughter, i felt myself cry but no tears roll down...until i hear the real words from him.

I enjoyed the times we spent together..and thats partially part of the reason i let all these happen..but now that all these happen, i aint enjoying it anymore i need to take a break out of all these before more unhappiness unfold.

No stress buddy, take ur time to choose what u want..but as you choose, i aint no fool.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2/06/2008 05:53:00 am